Its been 40days already. I guess things are getting abit better not that it feels so good kan. Niwaes good morning zizi poyo. Im sitting here at work wondering if u managed to stay strong or did u faint instead.
Was rather upset last night bapak i still perangai.. 1+ am mak i had to go bang on his room door like 1 mad woman. It was really stressful i was trying to sleep.
Don't they think about me anymore? Im here trying hard to find peace in myself yet they brought chaos home. I guess its hard that my brother don't stay with us anymore.
All those fights and arguements i have to bear them alone. I guess even adults are never really adults they still have their childish/unnecesary arguements that can be settled in a more proper way.
Mak i lak ajak gi serawak next month ngan makcik i. I dont feel like going not at this moment though. Because i still feel it would be nicer if u could join along.
Back to work now.. to be continued..
Talking abt jodoh..for sure no one ever knows their jodoh. Its only a matter of wheather u want to sacrifice and simply commit to one person and that person offers the same commitment.
God wont seperate 2 people who were deep in love just like that. Yes god wants us to learn..and improve ourselves so we can be better for that person. Things happen for a reason. Not just simply god takes away feelings that were real just like that.
I still believe and keep believing in gods will.. and i believe god is fair and not cruel. Maybe because of how i was god took away your feelings for the moment. To test me if i really love u which i do.
I sabar. I tabah. I redha.
Fad still loves ziana as of 9 jan 2017.
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