D-43 ep 2

Im wondering if you saw the email i wrote which i asked erika to show you. Hope i could get some words from u too but most likely won't kan. I really hope u don't misuse the $500 i gave u its from my savings. Its supposed to be for your travels but honestly i feel that its already being used right? Its ok if u did u must have your reasons kan.

Just want to share the things i keep praying for these days.. during my prayers i never fail to doa..
- For me to be stronger and better
- For u to be happy and safe
- And for allah to jodohkan kita berdua

" Ya allah kalau jodoh aku dan Norziana Bte Mohd Hanifah bukan lah untuk dunia ini, ku mohon kau jodohkan ku dengannya dia syurga "

You were always my special one someone irreplaceable. I never did things or cried for a girl like how i did before. Even in sadness and tears i was realising how much u meant to be. I told myself i was a fool for failing to look after u well.. But all i did was for your happiness. I can't bear to see u suffer so i chose to sacrifice my love,feelings and life so that the one i love can be happy.

People say "Everyone is gonna hurt you,but u gotta find the one worth suffering for"..
Yes Norziana Bte Mohd Hanifah is worth suffering for. You happiness is worth it if i should suffer.

Anytime u need someone im always here for you. Just beep me up or email or something.. I won't be on fb or twitter active for the time being.. I don't have any feel or thoughts to contact or talk to other girls so i hope the next time a girl text me up, it would be u.. I could ask so many people for your new number even from singtel but nehh... thats not right.

This song keeps me holding on to reality which i refused to accept before. Keeps me calm i've been listening to it the whole day. The only reason i always got angry in this situation was because i refused to accept reality i guess..I wish u could be by my side and help me change for the better.

I don't think u will be reading my blog.. But i hope one day u would without me asking u to.
Its the only place i can let my feelings out. Somewhere only u and me know of.

Hope u are always safe and doing good things.

Fad still loves Ziana as of 12 Jan 17.